This week I got the news that my aunt, my mother's sister is in hospice and is expected to die. She was the last connection I have to my mother. She is the last living relative I have any connection with. ( Oh God, I just ended a sentence with a preposition.) I have always wondered what happens when we die. Where do we go? What happens to us? Unlike the belief that my mother shared and my brother believes, I do believe that our soul goes on in some sort of continuation. But I wonder where and how.
For the longest time I thought there was no close connection between this life and life after life. I think I was wrong. I believe there is a definite connection between this life and the one after the physical dimension.
I like to think there is some kind of divine power who has a handle on a universe where clearly people do NOT. But when I can get my mind out from the close involvement of living and remain observer I can see that there IS some divine kind of power out there. Nine months after my father died, I was sitting in a room with a few people when I felt an energy emanating to me from behind where I was sitting. It was so familiar and yet different. Clearly I could feel my father's presence standing firmly behind me reaching out to me from the dimension of the non physical. Telepathically I received a message that said:" I love you and am with God." That happened seventeen years ago and it left a powerful imprint on my being. It is the hope I hold on to that by my mother and brother's philosophy is in error. They both believed/believe that when you die you are dead and there is nothing more.
I also am beginning to think Heaven is here in this physical plane as well. It is all in attitude. How I perceive my life and the things around me affects whether I am in Heaven or Hell. Yeah, it is like the old concept if the glass is viewed half full or half empty. I am learning to see that half filled glass is good. In that attitude, I am learning to live in Heaven. So Heaven or Hell is a choice. Bad things DO happen on earth, no doubt about it. People do create hell on earth for themselves and others. But hopefully I am learning to find and create Heaven during my time here on this earthly plane.
My aunt is going to pass over to the next dimension at some given time. But I truly believe she will be reacquainted with her husband, her parents, and her sister, my mother. I do believe she will go from strength to strength as we will do when that day comes for the rest of us mortals still traipsing around here. Until that time, I am going to work on making the choice of finding and living in Heaven on this earth.
