This is Leo. Leo is a fictitious character on the old television show called Charmed. He has reincarnated several times and finally became a white lighter in the lives of the Charmed ones. Leo was basically a healer who healed any innocents as well asn the charmed ones under his care. The Charmed ones are three good witches who fight all the demons of the world. Just your average good verses evil type of television but with a nice subernatural twist. Well, it is now 1/11. On Tuesday after this is posted it will be 1/11/11. In November on the 11th day of that month it will be 11/11/11. Somehow I believe there is a connection between the number 1 and the color white. I don't know why. I have always seen numbers in color. For example here is how I see this. 1 is white. 2 is a light pale salmon 3 is yellow 4 is red, 5 is light blue, 6 is in the blue family, 7 is yellow green 8 is purple, and nine is probably indigo. Why? I don't know. I have always seen colors and numbers. Even pitches have colors too. Piano music is all colors, Trupets blow out yellow notes. Oboes have a nice rich burt sienna sound. Ahh, just as I write this I have answered my own question. Numbers, colors, pitches in music, like everything in creation has a vibrational energy and colors definitely have energy.
I beleive this year 2011, the energy is lining up in some way and I feel compelled to align with at-1-ment with white and goodness. For the past 25 years I was involved in the realm of organized religion. I believed I had a "calling" to do the work in that institution and for twenty odd years I enjoyed helping people and attempting to find my identity of being a part of something larger than I. Sadly mixed in with that institution is the addiction of egos and everyone who seeks or should I say most everyone who seeks that calling may get seduced by the 'allure of being in that position of authority', especially higher-ups. After all this time I realized my skills, talent, and gifts, fit the orgainized institution of religion, but I, me, did NOT fit at all. I mean what was I thinking? What was a rebellious Jewish female doing in a white anglo saxon protestant institution??? Getting lost! Getting lost in Egoland. I am very grateful that I could and did help people along the way. But as I look back I see it was just another detour of self exploration.
I am very grateful for my graduate education. I loved learning about theology, history, and about the Bible. In fact I learned more about Judaism there than I did growing up in my non-practicing Jewish family. I also learned how people can do both good and painful harm in religious institutions. After enough experience of pain, I am glad to say I am no longer a part of any organized institutions of religion. Now I am half way through my second master's degree. This time I am studying marriage and family therapy. THIS is where I probably should have been over 30 years ago, but honestly was afraid of the science aspect of psychology. Well, I am enjoying studying various theories of Minuchen, Haley, Erikson, Bowen, Jung, and all the rest. It is like eating at a huge banquet of wonderful foods. By June 2012, I will graduate with a second master's degree. For about four years I mourned and grieved the organized institution, never thinking there was life outside of the most accepted cult in the world. Well divine intervention pushed me back to the hallowed halls of education and what a wonderful discovery I experience! I love learning, writing papers, and finding what I never could find in the organized institution of religion. I am finding who I am meant to be. THAT is a wonderful experience.
What does any of this have to do with white light, the number 1? Everything! I am discovering what I desparately was searching for in my past profession. I am finding me. I am finding me and divinity. The truth is that organized religious institutions help people sometimes find the divine around them, outside of them, hardly ever focusing on helping people discover the divine within. THAT is what I am slowly discovering. I used to always tell people when you find God, you will find yourself. And when you find yourself you will find God. I spoke a good word, never finding or getting close to this, despite that I THOUGHT I had. I was very off the mark. It through that detour and being on the path of psychology were I am truly finding the divine within me. This is at-1-ment that I am expressing here. Also I am finding that I may have found exactly where I am supposed to be and participating in something bigger than I am.
I hope when I graduate and take the big licence test that I will truly help people find their own divineness within. Who knows, maybe this is the kind of white lighting work I am meant to do. I only know keep walking and progressing one small step at a time, one course at a time. I am very grateful.
